Moving Again,

I had a dream last night that I flew back to California over night and showed up at my friends' house. Nobody knew I would do that. And then I was ready to take a picture of all of us together to post on here, to surpirse everyone of my move~ and I woke up.

What's gotten into me?

Well, nevermind the dream, I couldn't do such a spontaneous thing even if I wanted to because there is this US immigration law that I think really stinks. My plan for this summer was to visit the US to be in one of my best friend's wedding and despite all the financial risks that would come with such a trip, I was going to make it happen. But I recently found out that it is very unlikely for me to get a visitor's visa. Reason being, I don't have any points going for me to indicate that I would return to my homeland, Korea, when my visit is over. I guess too many Koreans have misused this "privilege" of going to America on a visitor's visa by overstaying their stay and hiding as "illegal aliens."

So these are the points I would need in order to show INS that I am legit for visiting. All of which, I do not have. I need to be married, committed to someone here so I will return. I need to have legal documentation that shows my history of employment, a minimum of three years, to show that I have a steady job in Korea, to which I would return. I need to be the daughter of an LG or Samsung CEO so that I am loaded with assets for which I would return. I need to buy a house to which I would return. I need to be enrolled in a school here in Korea, but that's unlikely at this point. I think you get the idea. I have nothing for me to show that I would return to this country. AND, if I get rejected once, I would be turned down over and over again for the next seven years. Hm.

That's a dissapointment in the arse but what can you do? Nothing at this point, I don't have the power to change these circumstances.

Despite the typical unstable mid-20's life that I seem to treading, I am beginning to absorb it. Accepting certain things in life is one thing I've struggled with these past couple years. But I'm applying some lessons now.

I'm moving again, to a place half the size of my apt now. This will save me lots of money but to MOVE again?

Last year, I was hoping to settle down in one place because I thought I needed stability, after years and years of moving from one place to another, one country to another, I was tired of shifting relationships. But for some reason, I was given such a life and for some reason it's still the type of life I can't seem to control. Not yet time for me to stay put in one geographical place. I ended up here. And now I move again, and of course, it's no big deal because I'm still at the same job, church, and near my family. So that makes it easier. But I think maybe this simple move is allowing me to go a step deeper in accepting my life as a nomad. At least for this stage of life. Someday I may have my own house, my own family, and a solid thriving career, but not yet. And I accept. That's pretty freeing to say.

I haven't packed or anything yet and I move in 4 days. Good thing is, I don't have to do organized packing and/or storing like I would if I were moving to another land. There's no need to feel overwhelmed and ball when I can't zip up a suitcase. This time I can just dump everything in open boxes and transport them in my dad's car and have my dad help me move. At least I have some of my family near.

Will post pictures of my place before I pack as well as my new home...later.